The most daunting aspect of being a college student (for me) is the inevitability of moving onto higher education. It was hard enough work getting into the college I wanted to attend, never mind the effort that's needed to get into University.
I've always wanted to go to uni. For as long as I can remember I had aimed to go to uni and get my degree, and anything less than that didn't seem worth my time. But the closer it gets, the more I start thinking that maybe uni isn't the place for me?
My problem with going used to be about money - I never thought I could afford it. Turns out that I was wrong and anyone can go to uni (theoretically) and not have to pay a penny until they start earning enough. My heart was set once again onto going to university and the dream of becoming a fully qualified Psychologist was one step close.
I knew that if I wanted to make a career after going to uni, I had to pick a subject that would pay well in the long run and I'd be doing something I love. So, Psychology was in the lead and all of my attention was on ensuring that I worked hard in my first year of college so I wouldn't have to resit and be a year behind everyone. This was crucial for me and taking a gap year wasn't an option either. My year for uni was 2015 and nothing was going to change that.
Until the end of my first year, were the grades that I wanted to see weren't highlighted in bold on my results sheet. I was devastated. I was grumpy as well, but mainly devastated. I had passed the other subjects with decent grades, a couple of C's here, and a B there, but the E in Psychology was something that I wasn't expecting. My dream moved one step away from me.
I dreaded that I would have to take the entire year again and my nightmare would become a reality. Luckily, it didn't. I agreed to retake AS psychology along side my other A2 lessons and I was able to breathe a sigh of relief.
But a realisation came over me; clearly this subject isn't for me, despite how passionate I am about it, so instead of doing Psychology at uni, why don't I do an English degree instead?
This thought process wasn't ideal, seen as though nothing apart from teaching sprung to mind when I thought of English-based careers that were stable? And yet taking it on at uni and carrying on as a PhD didn't seem like a bad idea. There's nothing wrong with doing something you enjoy after all? Or maybe I don't go yet, and do another year at college to make sure I'm ready to move ahead in my education?
Maybe 2015 isn't going to be my year after all...
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